Post by Kitty on Apr 15, 2009 11:03:03 GMT -5
So updates are in order I suppose.
I'm less stressed, and therefor having less problems. My blood is starting to thicken back up a bit (so my cuts actually heal and a little paper cut isn't enough to soak a washcloth) and I'm no longer throwing up ... although the random nose bleeds still persist... only they're getting smaller and smaller and I can eat again.
Work wise things are better at the new store with the management, the managers here (minus the store manager herself) have no sticks up their asses and are actually treating me like a human being. Hate my job, but at least I don't want to headesk myself into a coma the whole time I'm there on top of it.
Here's where the ish parts come in though. Looks like I pulled something in my shoulder, so i'm hoping it's just something pulled and I didn't manage to knock it partially out of the socket again like I've done before and I still need to go get my jaw and knee xrayed to see if either of those need surgery. (Damned insurance company is being retarded and have owed me my insurance benefits for 2 years... >.>) So there's a possibility I'll be in quite a nice array of pain for awhile should either of those need work. Not fun.
Yeah... I might.. .be scarce for a little while.
So they gave me a transfer I didn't want at 'random'.... when I know perfectly well it isn't random at all... it's because of this new assistant store manager that has a stick up her ass cause when they did layoffs they eliminated her position and demoted her down to this one. She's a bitch, no one likes her, and she decided to call and wake me up with under an hour of sleep.... and proceeded to follow me around and scream at me whilst I was OFF THE CLOCK. I asked her nicely if I could come in and pick my damn schedule in about na hour so I could de-bitch myself before I came in.. .she got super snotty with me and demanded that I go in right then.... so I went in groggy, pissy and just having one goal. The stupid thing wasn't where it was supposed to be so I asked her where it was, apparently had a little bit of 'attitude' with her... and yes...
The store they transferred me to has next to no business and I'm pretty much fucked for hours since, despite being with this god damned company for almost 3 years, at this store I'm third from the bottom in seniority and they transferred me a a CASHIER. I do not cashier, not only does it make me debate hanging myself but it's physically painful because of how my knees are. No one cares, they just label me as 'selfish bitch'.
Tonight was my last night shift, and it just kinda hit me tonight that I won't get to see some of my coworkers ever again and I just kinda felt something break at that thought. I never knew how utterly attached to these freaks I was but ... they've seen me through a lot, been there for me whenever I needed it and they've been rather influential in some big changes. And nothing is going ot be the same from this point. I really do feel alone now... and it's not a good feeling. I tried really hard not to break down into tears and I almost did when one of my favorites bear hugged me and said 'It's been fun.' and stuff ... managed to keep it under control til the end of my shift rolled around and my department manager came up and put his hand on my shoulder and told me how great of a worker I've been for him and that he was going to keep my number in case he ever had an hours for me and wished me luck and stuff... this is really hard for me... and I feel kinda dumb because of it but... gads this has been my life for so damn long...
not to mention I literally have to start all over again... I'm a creature of habit, I don't cope with change very well.... and this is a HUGE change. I work during hte middle of the day with a bunch of people I don't know doing something I don't remember how too... it's scary...
So forgive me if I'm a little scarce ... or talkative... I've got some issues ...
I'm less stressed, and therefor having less problems. My blood is starting to thicken back up a bit (so my cuts actually heal and a little paper cut isn't enough to soak a washcloth) and I'm no longer throwing up ... although the random nose bleeds still persist... only they're getting smaller and smaller and I can eat again.
Work wise things are better at the new store with the management, the managers here (minus the store manager herself) have no sticks up their asses and are actually treating me like a human being. Hate my job, but at least I don't want to headesk myself into a coma the whole time I'm there on top of it.
Here's where the ish parts come in though. Looks like I pulled something in my shoulder, so i'm hoping it's just something pulled and I didn't manage to knock it partially out of the socket again like I've done before and I still need to go get my jaw and knee xrayed to see if either of those need surgery. (Damned insurance company is being retarded and have owed me my insurance benefits for 2 years... >.>) So there's a possibility I'll be in quite a nice array of pain for awhile should either of those need work. Not fun.
So they gave me a transfer I didn't want at 'random'.... when I know perfectly well it isn't random at all... it's because of this new assistant store manager that has a stick up her ass cause when they did layoffs they eliminated her position and demoted her down to this one. She's a bitch, no one likes her, and she decided to call and wake me up with under an hour of sleep.... and proceeded to follow me around and scream at me whilst I was OFF THE CLOCK. I asked her nicely if I could come in and pick my damn schedule in about na hour so I could de-bitch myself before I came in.. .she got super snotty with me and demanded that I go in right then.... so I went in groggy, pissy and just having one goal. The stupid thing wasn't where it was supposed to be so I asked her where it was, apparently had a little bit of 'attitude' with her... and yes...
The store they transferred me to has next to no business and I'm pretty much fucked for hours since, despite being with this god damned company for almost 3 years, at this store I'm third from the bottom in seniority and they transferred me a a CASHIER. I do not cashier, not only does it make me debate hanging myself but it's physically painful because of how my knees are. No one cares, they just label me as 'selfish bitch'.
Tonight was my last night shift, and it just kinda hit me tonight that I won't get to see some of my coworkers ever again and I just kinda felt something break at that thought. I never knew how utterly attached to these freaks I was but ... they've seen me through a lot, been there for me whenever I needed it and they've been rather influential in some big changes. And nothing is going ot be the same from this point. I really do feel alone now... and it's not a good feeling. I tried really hard not to break down into tears and I almost did when one of my favorites bear hugged me and said 'It's been fun.' and stuff ... managed to keep it under control til the end of my shift rolled around and my department manager came up and put his hand on my shoulder and told me how great of a worker I've been for him and that he was going to keep my number in case he ever had an hours for me and wished me luck and stuff... this is really hard for me... and I feel kinda dumb because of it but... gads this has been my life for so damn long...
not to mention I literally have to start all over again... I'm a creature of habit, I don't cope with change very well.... and this is a HUGE change. I work during hte middle of the day with a bunch of people I don't know doing something I don't remember how too... it's scary...
So forgive me if I'm a little scarce ... or talkative... I've got some issues ...
I'm sorry to hear that, Kitty. ;_; [hugs tight] Hopefully your new workplace will be less insane to you, though? So you might get some perks out of the fail? And, as Sera said, it's definitely a plus that your department manager is still willing to bring you in.<3
