Something Like a Phenomena [Closed]

[Momo]

ooc: xDD She’s a woman after my own heart. And I just realized how much Ursula talks away this time - so sorry! Once you get her going it's hard to stop. <3

Ursula listened, now utterly jealous. “No, that sort of education sounds amazing – really just incredible. I went to one of those small public schools in Yarrow, not a bad place at all, but the classes we were able to take were very limited. Off the top of my head the only lesson I truly enjoyed and excelled at was gymnastics. And maybe writing,” Ursula added, laughing at herself. “I wasn’t the best student.” Somehow she had managed to get by, impossible as the situation had seemed. “I would have loved to try some of those basic classes, though – trying new things and broadening my horizons, you know?” She asked jokingly, imagining herself bent over a pottery wheel, her paws desperately trying again and again to shape the clay into something resembling an ashtray.

The fox sighed, surprised with how calm she felt after her confused ramble. She was constantly over thinking herself, feeling almost a sort of pride at her ability to just coast through life, which was naturally followed by a sense of disgust and general disappointment. The same vile cycle over and over and over again.

It was enough to make her sick.

“You’re absolutely right. I can feel it sometimes,” she said, chuckling uneasily. “Like I’m being pulled in half, some of me content…” Ursula trailed off thoughtfully. “No, resigned is a better word – resigned to being what I am now forever. Or maybe I just don’t think I deserve better,” she whispered, almost to herself. “Honestly, I’m not really sure.”

“And then of course there’s the part of me that wants to be more than what I am now. Not a Queen, I think.” She frowned; no, nothing quite like that. Too hard and way too time-consuming. “But something, even if it’s just a happier version of myself. Does that make sense?” She implored almost fearfully. That wasn’t the ravings of a nearly-mad woman, was it? They were in the middle of a crowded museum, and here she was discussing her internal turmoil! “As to what’s holding me back, I have next to no idea. Definitely some emotional shit I have to sort out, but I’m a pretty muddled individual at the moment.”

She bit her lip. “I know I have no right to ask, but do you regret it, Your Majesty? Your relationship with the Queen, I mean.” She was of the belief that everything happened for a reason – it had to; call it sentimental or foolish, but she truly believed in some sort of fate.

“I can’t imagine what it must be like,” she replied quickly and then pressed her lips together in brutal realization. “Actually…I can, on a much smaller scale obviously. My mother was the same way, married to the job and all that. Not like she abused me or even purposefully ignored me, but I remember a lot of nights spent alone. But she was a great sheriff because of it. And I would assume that’s why what little information I hear of the Courts is of praise of you.” Sacrifice ennobled people, as far as she was concerned.

[The Jenn]

"There are always classes for adults, if you ever have the time to stay in the realm for a few weeks straight and can afford to take them," Donnie said with a small smile. This was what vacations were all about, relaxing somewhere beautiful or with a healthy dose of atmosphere and meeting people. "Most of the people in those classes are non-Villas, or adults who are looking to branch out into new areas of expertise for fun, so you wouldn't be the only one there if you ever went."

She glanced around and spotted a little sitting area for people to better appreciate the art, however lackluster this current batch may have been. "Do you mind if I sit? I have a feeling this conversation won't be ending right away, and I've been walking around the city for a few hours now. No sense in aching before you need to." It wasn't lazy if you didn't plan on spending the entire day on your butt. There were seats for all sorts, with cushions for animal forms and benches for certain species with uncomfortable extra limbs. There were even a pair of slightly smaller chairs in case humans or vermin needed to sit.

Once she'd settled in a moderately comfortable chair and tucked her tail around beside her, she slouched more comfortably. Ah, the pleasures of informality. She couldn't lay around like a bum with her reputation to consider, but she could certainly relax. "You really shouldn't resign yourself to life. You'll never get anywhere once you start accepting your lot. There's always something to be working towards." The words themselves were condescending, but spoken with conviction. The canine could take them however she wished. The Queen was passionate about the subject. Being proactive defined a large part of who she was and what she did. "My best advice? Surprise yourself. Look at something you've always wanted to do, look at the reasons why you've never done it, and then say 'aw, fuck it' and just go. You don't sound like you have a lot of people holding you back, but if you do then either take them with you or settle things so you can leave for a little while. It sounds like you need a change of scenery. Have you ever tried living in another region besides Yarrow and the city?"

Her claws ticked on the arms of the large chair, built to accommodate a more massive biped like canines or particularly built mustelids or the like. The rhythm was one of her hand muscle exercises that were so very useful for musicians. Hnn. Touchy subject, especially with a stranger. "I'm not going into details, but overall... I don't regret it, no." And she left it at that.

[Momo]

Ursula giggled, thinking of her hunched over a tiny, wooden desk. “Well, I definitely have the time…” she trailed off, smirking. The money, however, would be hard to come by; whatever tiny fortune she was able to amass was spent in the blink of an eye. Bad habits, she supposed. It didn’t help that she liked to pretend to live the high life, despite the fact that that sort of lifestyle was well beyond her reach. “I’ll be sure to keep that in mind, thanks,” she said with a little smile. She would really love to play a musical instrument…

She blushed under her colorful fur and nodded. “No, of course!” Here she was, rambling on and on, like always so thoughtless about whomever she was talking to, even if it was The Queen. Inwardly she laughed at herself before joining Donnie in the little nook, sitting on some of the cushions kindly placed next to the chairs for those contained in their animal forms. The Yarrow exhaled a small sigh of relief that took her by surprise; apparently she was more tired than she had thought. Come to think of it, she had been on her feet the majority of the day.

The fox nipped her lower lip to keep herself from bristling. There were so many things she could say to that, both excuses and explanations alike; she was tired of all that. Instead, she merely nodded again and pressed her lips together thoughtfully. There was silence, a rare occurrence when speaking to her. “I’ve just never thought that much about the future, you know? Said the woman with a shrug of her shoulders. “I wish I was like you, in some ways,” she admitted. “You know what you want and you go after it."

She shook her head and laughed. “Eh, only a few people.” What were there, really, maybe a handful of Cards in the Gardens she’d consider friends? “And actually I haven’t. I’ve always thought that more expansive traveling would be outside my price range,” she noted unashamedly. “I wouldn’t mind seeing the Highlands, though, or somewhere similarly pretty.”

The grin on her face faltered for a moment before growing brazen. “No worries, I wasn’t expecting anything other than that. I’ve had a relationship or two kind of like that - never with the same sacrifices, obviously.”

[The Jenn]

This was an oddly compelling conversastion. It made Donnie feel charged in a way that she sometimes didn't in the day-to-day grind. This was sometimes how she felt when she made decisions that directly impacted others' lives. At least the advice was solicited here. "Sometimes what I want doesn't leave much room for the other people in my life. It's always a give-and-take. You just need to be active in the exchange or you get left in the dust."

The statement could be interpreted as a response to either or both areas of their current conversation. She left it nice and ambiguous.

"If you're able to entertain yourself and go for the cheaper food, traveling's not as pricey as a vacation usually is. So long as you're able to take the hit of not working for the duration of the trip. That's always been the kicker." Her mother had made a reasonable amount of money while they were growing up and her father left them everything she owned, so they had never hurt for money. They just had to be careful with it. "The Highlands are good for the 'natural splendor' of things. Close enough to the Gardens that it really isn't more than a day's travel to get deep into the hills, depending on where you're coming from. There are usually some pretty good deals on rooms in the Lakes and the Josiggy, if you're looking for cheap lodgings. At least, there were when I went. Haven't been too many other places."

She always meant to do more traveling, but with one thing and then another, her ambitions had taken priority. At least her mother had seen that they took vacations when she was younger.

[The Jenn]

((I'm going to close this for now... but if you ever come back and want to open it again, just lemme know. <3))

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