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Post by Kiki on Sept 18, 2008 20:49:15 GMT -5
  Dilis was hesitant about the appointment she made today. She couldn't take holding onto the pain anymore... she needed to talk to someone about it or she would burst. She heard about a nice woman named Alure who might be able to help her sort through things so here she was. She was afraid Father would find out so she lied and told him she was going out with Peder today. At least that way, he couldn't have his "friends" track her and ruin it all for her. He had a habit of keeping tabs on her so sometimes she needed to lie. She walked up slowly to the door with Aidan by her side and knocked, steeling herself for the person who opened it. She had held this inside of her for so long that she was not entirely sure she could go through with it. Well, it was now or never. |
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Post by Nyx on Sept 19, 2008 7:30:33 GMT -5
Alure had spent most of the day cleaning the office. She hated it when the slightest thing was out of place and it would grate on her nerves until it was straightened up. In all honesty, the office wasn't all that messy, but for some reason she had been finding bits of peanut shells in the couch cushions and she simply had no idea where they had come from. Once everything was clean and to her likeing, she moved to the desk and the ledger she kept that outlined all her appointments. Not that there really were all that many, but she was just beginning her own practice so that was to be expected. She glanced up at the clock and noticed that she actually had an appointment in just a few minutes so she had finished her cleaning right on time. A few moments later, she heard a soft knock on the door and she moved across the room and tug at the contraption that opened it. Things would be much easier once she had gained her bi-ped form. When the door was opened, she put a smile on her muzzle and faced the femme on the other side. Miss Dilis I presume. She hoped that she wasn't mistaken, she wasn't expecting anyone else at this time anyway. Do come in and make yourself comfortable. She dipped her head slightly to the King, showing the proper respect before motioning for her to enter. |
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Post by Kiki on Sept 19, 2008 9:12:57 GMT -5
Dilis walked inside ushering her bander Aidan in as the door opened. "Yes, my name is Dilis Ó Braoin." she said in a friendly manner. From the way the rat spoke, Dilis guessed this was Alure herself. Thank goodness, Dilis never did very well with secretaries and the like. She instead preferred to deal with the person themselves, less time dallying around.
She nodded at the invitation and she sat gingerly down in the chair closest to her and placed Aidan in her lap. He was a naughty boy sometimes and since she had no collar or leash, she wanted to make sure he did not get into trouble. Nervously, she began to play with her wrist as she was not sure what to expect so she looked up at the rat.
"Well, where should we start? I have not been to see someone like this before so I am really not sure what I am supposed to do..." she said quietly, playing with her pearls as she did so. She wondered if she was supposed to start things off or if Alure had something else in mind.
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Post by Nyx on Sept 22, 2008 12:54:17 GMT -5
Alure smiled as the little Bander followed it's owner to the chair and curled up in her lap. She causually walked to her desk, jumping up on top and checking her tape recorder. Until she managed to master her bi-ped form, she had to rely on the recorder to keep track of her sessions. Once she was satisfied that everything was in order, she used the end of her tail to turn the machine on. She settled herself on top of her desk, turning her attention back to Dilis. She smiled once more, trying to do her best to seem profesional and calming all at the same time. I find it best to start at the beginning. Easier to keep things straight that way. She wasn't exactly sure what the Kings precise problem was, prefering to let the situations come to hand during a session than when the original appointment was made.
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Post by Kiki on Sept 22, 2008 13:02:10 GMT -5
"Well. I guess my underlying problem is I know a secret about my father that I have not told anyone for fear of him. I saw him kill some people when I was just 4..." she shuddered thinking about it.
The memories were trying to flood back to her but she really wanted to repress them as best she could. It was so painful for her to think of what happened... she even to this day could not believe he had done that, he did not even know that Dilis had seen anything.
She took a deep breathe, now or never... remember Dilis? "The people he killed were... my mother and her lover..." she sighed. It was nice to finally get it out but at what cost? She was concerned that Father would find out she told and come after her... he did have a nasty temper as it were..
"And that is only the tip of the iceberg..." This session was going to be a long one.
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Post by Nyx on Sept 22, 2008 14:04:21 GMT -5
Well, that was certainly getting right into the heart of the problem now wasn't it. Alure couldn't keep the shocked look off of her face, a look that only got worse as the story went on. She shook her head and cleared her throat, trying to regain her composure quickly. I am sorry about my shocked expression, but you have defiantly caught me off guard, My Dear. The rat had a bad habit of simply forgetting about a person's rank and giving them little affectionate pet names. Sometimes it helped to keep them calm, sometimes it did not. She hoped that today, it would be the former. She continued on, hoping that her little slip would get overlooked by the King. That is certainly a lot for someone to have to deal with for some long. Especially considering the others involved.
This was defiantly going to be a case that she needed to tread lightly through. She didn't want to cause more damage than was already done. Does your father know that you saw this. . .transgression?
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Post by Kiki on Sept 22, 2008 14:25:35 GMT -5
"I-I do not think he knows anything, no. I was hiding on the stair when all of this happened. I just remember hearing yelling about mother being a..." she lowered her voice at this "...cheating whore and that he would find the kid and kill him too. I am not sure what he meant by this though, I do not have any siblings..." she said quietly still. She had her suspicions he meant she had given birth to another child but she could never prove it.
"I understand your surprise... if it had not happened to me, I would not even believe it" she said petting Aidan nervously.
"If father knew I saw what happened I think he might..." she tensed up suddenly for a moment and then calmed herself down. "Well, I do not know what he would do to be honest but I intend never to find out."
"But like I said, that is only the tip of the iceberg as far as my problems go..." she said sadly. It really bothered her knowing she had so many issues.
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Post by Nyx on Sept 24, 2008 15:00:23 GMT -5
Alure, nodding as the story went on, decided that maybe it was best that she turn the tape recorder off. This was possibly one session that should not be recorded. If her father was indeed ignorant to the fact that she had seen, then it was best that there was no evidence. She looked back over her shoulder and pushed the rewind button, making a mental note to record over the tape at her first possible chance. The rat could only imagine what Dilis' father would do if he found out, but since now she was privy to the information as well, she was determined that he not find out as well.
That is definatly a disturbing revilation. She shook her head, her silver eyes watching the Kings movements. You say that is only the tip of the iceburg. Tell me another of your problems. Alure was good at keeping lists in her mind, so she didn't need to worry about the tape recorder being on to keep track.
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Post by Kiki on Sept 24, 2008 15:28:18 GMT -5
"I came to you for a specific reason and that is that lately... i have been feeling a bit crazy. I find myself acting differently and losing patches of time... and when i wake up... terrible things have happened. I am not the type to pick fights, kill, steal or even to use what father calls "the common language" but it has been proven to me that I have in fact been doing all those things. I am ashamed to say I have become what I most feared... a murderer. I cannot be sure but I know that at least one one or two accounts I have taken a life and that terrifies me and it makes me sick to my stomach knowing this."
She took a minute to wipe the tears from her eyes and play with the gloves she held in her lap nervously. None of this would have happened if it weren't for them...
"I have committed unspeakable acts and even broke things off with my longtime boyfriend because of what has been happening... See, my boyfriend and I were brutalized pretty badly on a trip back from Midori Beach. I myself having been raped and Peder, my boyfriend, beaten badly by someone who claimed they were trying to help us find our way. It's stupid really now thinking about it but, I wanted to think this person was out to help us. Thinking back, I wish I had listened to Peder when he first voiced concern.." she sighed. She loved Peder but she really needed to get her head straight before she returned to him... if he would even have her.
"I just want to feel alright like before. No i take it back, I want to feel better than I did before and have some confidence for once. It is bad enough being a club in the Courts but it is worse to be a Club with self confidence issues..."
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Post by Nyx on Sept 26, 2008 7:08:17 GMT -5
Listening carefully to make sure that she didn't miss a thing, Alure nodded to each point Dilis made. One would assume that most of this could lead back to seeing her father kill her mother, and there was a very good chance that it did, but then again, it could be genetic, or something else all together. She nipped a box of tissue off of her desk and slid to the floor to drop the box on the arm of the chair where the King could reach them. She didn't seem the least bit taken aback by the fact that she had basically just admitted to being a murderess. She moved back to her desk and settled on top of it once more, using her tail to once more turn on the tape recorder, deeming it safe enough to do so. You say you have been loosing patches of time, how long do these black outs usually last? Maybe she could use a bit of hypnosis to delve deeper into the matter, but not now, there were other things that needed to be dealt with first.
The revilation of the attack was another thing to take into account as a possible trigger. Did the black outs and things start before or after the trip? It might be best that you did break things off with this Peder. Does he know about the things that have been going on? If he did, Alure wondered if she could talk Dilis into bringing him along to a future session.
She nodded to the last statement. I understand about being a Club obviously, being one myself, but you have already started yourself on the road to recovery, just by coming to see me.
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