Gratitude

[Vyn]

<3 I... just don't have the words to express how much I agree with everything you wrote here. Thank you for saying all the things I am honestly too afraid to say. Thank you (and your wonderful dad) for helping me realize all the things I needed to say.

Just. Thank You.

[Lucca]

...you know...you're absolutely right, Kari. I know I try to give each and every one of my characters the love they deserve, and to me, they are like people. But sometimes I...get stupid and, I'll admit it, jealous when it feels like I'm not 'getting anything'...so you're right, this is an amazing site and all of you are really great writers and rpers but it's so easy to lose track of what's important.

Thank you for saying this.

[Blue]

All of this is so very true, Kari. I never thought I would be any good at this, and then you convinced me to join. Then Nat gave me Calanthe, and she sprung alive! I couldn't believe it, but I was so happy it did. And that's exactly what I want to happen with all my other characters, now that I've accumulated more than a few.

You brought out the writer in me, Kari, and I'm thankful for that. This site has been a great deal of fun for me, and a great release for when I need to relax at the end of the day. I'll admit I got a little caught up in some of the contests, always wanting that new SD when I have so many that I haven't even played yet. And I would hate to lose them before I let their voices be heard. The thought of it makes me want to cry.

I know my life has gotten in the way too, but I don't want it to anymore. I'm ready to turn a new leaf, and I want SoD to become a bigger part of my life, because I do enjoy being here and interacting with everyone. You all have been so kind to me from the very beginning, jumping at the chance to RP with me when I mention it, as well as listen to my countless woes that have come up time and again. It's a little family we've got going here, and I love it just as much as my real family because you all care.

Thank you Kari, for bringing this to light. It's definitely something we all needed to be reminded of. <3

[Satra]

I... wut...

What the hell did I miss? oO

[Callypso]

This was wonderful, Kari. I hope you know that. Open communication is really key, and if we can't speak candidly with people that we're building worlds with, well then... what's the point?

In the vein of Greenie's missive, I have to say that I'm intimidated by the lot of you. Some of you have been with this community for years, and it's easy to spot in the ease with which you RP with one another, or the inside jokes that appear over the board and in many other countless ways.

I joined because I heard Xenon talk about it a few times, and when I asked, she patiently pulled up all her characters, explained the world and how the site worked. Honestly, it kind of blew my mind. The fact that someone brought all these ideas to the table and here it is, alive, in this community. How cool is that? Not only did the world itself sound incredibly bizarre and interesting, but I was looking for a place to exercise my creative muscles. I've felt for a long time that my ingenuity has stifled under the weight of school, work, friends and the endless other things that ensnare you and cause a Creation Block. I wanted a way to pull myself out of my own mental stagnation. So here I am.

It's a struggle, it honestly is. I used to spend hours writing stories, drawing comics, scribbling in the margins of my class notes, getting home and drawing- whatever I wanted. Somewhere along the line my Well of Imagination dried up. And it's freaking frustrating. So to come here, in this crazy place where magic is rampant and literally anything can happen- well, it's awe-inspiring, intimidating, scary, fun and can be extremely overwhelming. My muse (or muses) are underfed, weak and struggling. But they're there. And I would very much like to bring them to life with all of you!

Again, though, I'm extremely intimidated by so many creative, wonderful writers, and it can be hard to approach someone with an idea. Hell, I'd be happy to just chat with some of you from time to time - plus, "talking it out" helps me form my thoughts more clearly. ;D

That all being said - and I feel a bit ridiculous for saying it at all, because honestly I feel like sometimes I don't "have the right" because I'm so new to SoD - but thanks for helping me get my groove back. (And I figured I should just say what I think, since this seems to be the thread encouraging it, so please forgive me...)

Nat... I don't know how you do it. You are so incredibly busy all the time, yet you still pump out all these amazing characters, new ideas, contests, redraws... I just don't know how you do it. We're incredibly lucky to have a leader as dedicated as you. I've already immensely enjoyed my brief stint here, and I look forward to all the fantastic things you have in store for us. Thank you thank you thank you!

As for the rest of you- I've really enjoyed your company so far, and if you have some free time, feel free to send a PM or catch my attention on AIM. Let's keep making this place AWESOME!! XD

ETA: I don't have a beef with anyone/thing- I just wanted to agree with the general sentiment and express how delighted I am to be part of this community.

[Harpsdesire]

Jul 28, 2010 22:52:58 GMT -5 Satra said:

I... wut...

What the hell did I miss? oO

Yes, this.

[Nathalia]

Kari, m'dear.

I appreciate your sentiments, and I think it's wonderful of you to try and consider what it's like to step back and think on what you're currently doing with your character.

I do love how you relate to your characters and the effort you put into them is always utterly amazing and beautiful to watch unfold.

Thank you for your compliments and your efforts. You make me feel quite fluffy.

However, you seem to have broken our cardinal board rule.

i(1) Be polite. Cursing is permitted but you should consider the impact of your words and keep things to a minimum. It's usually better to express yourself in words that have more than four letters. Your character may be a raging bitch or a racist pig, but such behavior won't be tolerated out-of-character. Keep the peace, respect your fellows, and keep any personal conflicts off of the boards. This is our #1 rule for a reason.

If you are having troubles, please come and talk to me instead of humiliating the other person publicly. That's very unkind and you're a wonderful person and quite far above that.

As an Admin, I am required to edit your post to remove the offending material.
This is not a personal thing, I am not doing it only to you. This is a board rule to keep others from fighting publicly.
Please help me to do this.

Thank you.




~Nathalia

[Kari Muffin]

Nat. Everyone as much as I love the rule you don't realize how much hate is happening. This "peace" is false. I just want to tell you all the hateful spiteful things that you do that just make me so so sad. And none of you realize how good you are, and none of you realize that I'm mad because no one stands up for themselves. NO ONE.

I love you so much the only reason why I play on the board is because I don't want to disappoint you. ANY OF YOU. It's gotten that bad.

Quite honestly I never wanted to kill Theo. I wanted to do so much more with him but I felt... obligated to kill him for the sake of everyone's happiness. Because almost EVERYONE looked to me and went "Kari.... I don't like what's happening."

And that was the moment I knew I loved everyone on the board. And I hated that everyone saw me as a mean spirited nasty bitch for NOT going along with their PLANS.

You have no idea how much it hurts me to walk on egg shells all the time.

Because I feel guilty not telling the truth. I feel guilty playing my characters to the T of their personality because... people take it personally.

I'm no one special. I'm not super man. I didn't want to deal with SoD drama when my mother DIED. But people forced me to.

And I don't tell any of you because I always hope... one day you'll actually listen.

Because this was the only place I ever felt like I belong.

[Satra]

I feel a little frustrated that because I feel like you're accusing a lot of people who aren't part of whatever is going on as being a part of it.

I will be AIM more frequently after this Saturday if you need to talk, because you've made it very obvious that you do not communicate openly, either.

[Nathalia]

I'm not sure what the hateful and spiteful things I have done are, but I would like to sincerely apologize for them, and hope that; in the future, you will come to me with them before they escalate to this level.

I try not to get involved enough to make decisions that are seen as "hateful", but they can sometimes be viewed that way without my knowledge, I wish you had told me so I could stop.

):


~Nathalia