I've needed help for quite a while now...(Update)

[Satra]

Wonderful. <3 So happy to hear it. Stay strong, though! Just because you're past the worst of it doesn't mean it's over yet. You can do it.

[Callypso]

I'm so glad that you're hanging in there, lady. Part of me is terrified because you're not under medical supervision (blame it on the fact that I have a lot of relatives with medical careers), but it seems like you're doing okay so far. The minute things get ugly, though, please call someone to come be with you! *hugs* Happy thoughts!

[Lauryn de Vampyre]

Thank you guys SO MUCH for all of your support.

Today, was kind of a bad day with a POSSIBLE happy ending tomorrow. We shall see.
I wake up with even less restlessness, thank goodness! But then I realize I have a voicemail from a blocked number on my phone. I listen to it and it's a detective from a neighboring town of where I used to work. Immediately, I think it's that my job did file felony charges of theft against me. I think I actually stopped breathing for a second and my skin felt as thought it was on fire.

After getting some good advice from a friend, and a new aquaintence from the NA meetings, I decide to just be 100% honest in everything that I've done and to just accept the concequences. I call the guy back, twice, but can't get ahold of him because he was in an interview.

Then later on I get a call from a Blocked number and know it's him. I answer the phone and he introduces himself again and asks me if I know someone specific that he named. I said I did, and he told me that "you're not in trouble or anything". He said that twice during the conversation...
Anywho, he said they're building a case against this guy, and they were going through his phone records and my number appeared quite a few times. Now this guy is someone I used to buy Vicodin from, so they very may well have text messages I sent the guy, asking for pills.
But, no matter what happens, I'm going to just be truthful with them. I'm going to bring my NA book and keychain, let them do a drug test if they want and pray to God that they really do only want to concentrate on the guy that is selling the stuff and not an addict in recovery who isn't using anymore.

So please, think or pray for me. I need it.

[Harpsdesire]

Glad to hear that you're starting to feel even better.

I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers, but I don't think you have to worry too much. Catching one dealer > catching 20 users. If you cooperate, are honest about things, and particularly now that you're recovering, I'd be willing to bet they'll let you slide. They're more interested in getting the guy who's selling than his victims, as it were.

Also-- How great is your timing?!? It would be much worse-looking to the detective if you were still buying from the guy. Another advantage to making the hard, right choice. You're seriously so amazing.